Give Up Loving Him and Start Over

The alarm shrieked at 5:30 AM, but I was already awake, staring at the ceiling of my studio apartment.

Sleep had become a luxury I couldn’t afford—not when Mark might need something early.

I threw on my old charcoal coat and stepped into the bitter Boston wind, clutching the oat milk latte I’d bought with the last of my grocery money. Watching Mark’s face light up when he saw it was worth eating ramen for a week.

The HaleTech building glimmered against the gray sky. My keycard beeped; the lobby was empty except for Miguel, the night guard.

“Early again, Miss Lewis?”

“Just catching up,” I said, smiling.

Up on the fifteenth floor, I set the latte on Mark’s desk, three inches from his laptop, the way he liked it. The reorganized meeting materials sat neatly beside it—color-coded, reformatted, perfect.

Everything had to show him that I understood him better than anyone else.

By the time he arrived, the office buzzed with the usual morning chatter.

When Mark stepped through the glass doors at 8:47, he looked every bit the man who belonged in this world—tailored suit, calm confidence, eyes sharp as steel.

He paused at his desk, noticing the latte, the order, the precision. Then his gaze met mine through the partition.

“Thanks, you’re a lifesaver,” he said, barely looking up before settling in.

Four words—but they were enough to keep me glowing through the day.

That evening, his text came: Can you stay late? Need your eyes on the investor presentation.

My chest tightened. Of course, I replied.

How possible was it for me to turn him down? I just couldn’t.

Hours passed unnoticed. At 2 AM, my eyes stung as I finalized his slides—alignment, data, color scheme—everything seamless.

“You’ve outdone yourself,” he said, leaning back, exhaustion softening his features. “Don’t know what I’d do without you.”

I smiled. “Just doing my job.”

Outside, snow fell in silent flakes. At the bus stop, my phone buzzed: Thanks again. You’re the best.

I pressed the screen to my chest like it meant something.

The next morning, I arrived before dawn with another latte. HaleTech smelled faintly of disinfectant and burnt coffee. His desk was waiting, his world perfectly arranged.

When the elevator chimed, I heard his voice—light, cheerful—and another one beside it: Julian Croft, his wealthy friend. Their laughter floated down the hall, careless and bright, slicing through the early stillness.

Through the glass, I watched Julian patting Mark’s shoulder.

“Let’s see if your unpaid maid strikes again,” he said with a smirk.

And Mark laughed—casual, careless.

My throat closed, the air catching somewhere deep in my chest.

For a moment, I couldn’t even hear them anymore—just the echo of that phrase ricocheting in my head.

Unpaid maid.

That was what I was to him.

Not the person who stayed until 2 a.m. perfecting his slides. Not the one who memorized his coffee order, his favorite pen, the subtle shift in his tone when he was tired. Just a