Divorced on the Operating Table

The fluorescent lights above the operating table cast everything in harsh, clinical white. I could feel the cold metal beneath my back, seeping through the thin hospital gown that barely covered me. The anesthesia mask hovered inches from my face, but I wasn't ready yet. Not quite.

I turned my head slightly, ignoring the sharp protest from the IV needle in my arm, and looked toward the adjacent operating room through the glass partition. There she was—Chloe Martinez, Gabriel's first love, lying on her own table. Even in her weakened state, she looked ethereal. Her dark hair fanned across the pillow like silk, and her pale skin seemed to glow under the surgical lights.

Gabriel stood beside her bed, his hand gently stroking her forehead. His touch was so tender, so careful, as if she might shatter at any moment. I watched his lips move, forming words I couldn't hear but could easily imagine.

"Don't worry, my love. Everything will be fine."

The familiar ache in my chest intensified. Three years of marriage, and he had never looked at me that way. Not once.

"Mrs. Chen?" The anesthesiologist's voice pulled me back to my own reality. "We're ready to begin. Are you comfortable?"

Comfortable? I almost laughed at the absurdity of the question. Nothing about this was comfortable. Giving up a kidney to save the woman my husband truly loved while he barely acknowledged my existence—comfort was the last thing I felt.

"Yes," I whispered, my voice barely audible.

Through the partition, I could see Gabriel leaning down to press a kiss to Chloe's forehead. His eyes were closed, his expression peaceful in a way I'd never seen before. It was the look of a man saying goodbye to his everything, terrified he might lose her.

When was the last time he'd looked at me with even a fraction of that emotion?

The mask descended over my face, and I breathed in the metallic-tasting gas. But before I surrendered to unconsciousness, Gabriel finally turned toward my room. Our eyes met through the glass for just a moment.

He didn't smile. Didn't mouth any words of encouragement or love. Instead, his gaze shifted to the monitors beside my bed, studying my vital signs with the detached interest of someone checking the weather.

That's all I was to him—a set of numbers on a screen. A compatible donor. A convenient solution to his desperate problem.

The anesthesia began to pull me under, but I fought it for a few more seconds. I needed to see him look at me—really look at me—just once. To see something, anything, that resembled the tenderness he showered on her.

But Gabriel had already turned back to Chloe. He was whispering something in her ear now, his hand cupping her cheek with infinite care.

"Don't be afraid," his voice carried faintly through the intercom system. "Soon you'll be healthy again. Soon you'll be perfect."

Perfect. The word hit me like a physical blow.

I had never been