When He Chose His Mistress, I Chose Myself

The pain came like a knife, twisting deep in my abdomen. One moment I was standing in our kitchen, preparing Christopher's favorite pasta for when he returned from his business dinner, and the next I was doubled over, clutching the marble countertop, a cold sweat breaking across my forehead.

"It'll pass," I whispered to myself, the way my mother always did when faced with discomfort. "Just breathe through it."

But it didn't pass. It intensified, radiating from my right side until I could barely stand. I slid down to the cool tile floor, my phone clutched in my trembling hand. The screen showed 7:43 PM. Christopher would be with his colleagues now, probably laughing over appetizers, his phone silenced in his jacket pocket as usual when he was with people he considered important.

I dialed anyway.

One ring. Two rings. Three.

"This is Christopher Blake. Leave a message."

I tried to keep my voice steady. "Chris, I need you to come home. Something's wrong. I think I need to go to the hospital."

The pain surged again, and I curled into myself on the kitchen floor. Our apartment—the one I'd spent countless hours decorating to Christopher's exact specifications—suddenly felt vast and empty. The gleaming surfaces and carefully curated art pieces offered no comfort as I dragged myself toward the bathroom, thinking maybe a hot shower would help.

It didn't.

By 9:30 PM, I'd called him seventeen times. By midnight, forty-three. Each time, the same voicemail greeting. Each time, my messages grew more desperate.

"Chris, please. The pain is getting worse."

"I can't stand up anymore."

"I'm scared."

I couldn't reach the medicine cabinet from the floor where I'd collapsed. My vision blurred at the edges, and the bathroom tiles felt ice-cold against my cheek. Outside our floor-to-ceiling windows, Manhattan glittered indifferently, thousands of lights from apartments where people weren't alone, weren't in agony, weren't being ignored by the person who was supposed to love them most.

At 2:17 AM, I made my sixty-eighth call. Through the haze of pain, a thought surfaced with startling clarity: Christopher wasn't coming. He was with Vanessa. I'd seen how his eyes lit up when she texted him earlier that day—"Big news on the London project! Dinner to celebrate?"

I could picture them now, champagne flutes clinking at that intimate Italian place in SoHo he'd taken me to once, years ago, when I still believed I was his priority. Vanessa would be leaning forward, her sleek dark hair falling just so, laughing at something clever he'd said. And my calls? Silenced vibrations in a pocket, easily ignored.

By dawn, I'd called ninety-nine times. My phone battery was at 2%. The pain had become a monster consuming me from the inside out. I couldn't move, couldn't think beyond the agony. My last coherent thought before consciousness slipped away was that I'd spent five years making Christopher's life perfect, and he couldn't spare five minutes to answer my call.

I didn't hear the paramedics breaking down our