My Brother’s Best Friend Chose Me Over Him

The Seattle skyline glittered against the night sky as I leaned against the rooftop railing, my twenty-fifth birthday celebration in full swing behind me. My friends laughed and drank, their voices carrying over the ambient music, but I couldn't stop checking my phone.

Zayn hadn't shown up.

I'd sent him three texts over the past hour—casual, light, the kind that wouldn't make him feel cornered. *The view is beautiful up here!* and *Everyone's asking for you!* and finally, *Are you still coming?* Each message showed as read, but remained unanswered.

'He'll come,' I whispered to myself, more a prayer than a statement. 'He promised he'd try.'

My thumb hovered over his contact again when the screen lit up with an incoming message. My heart leapt—then plummeted as I read the words.

*I'm reconciling with Isabelle. We're getting back together. You never really mattered to me, Madelynn. I needed you to make her jealous, and it worked. Don't contact me again.*

The phone nearly slipped from my fingers. I read it again. And again. The words didn't change.

The rooftop seemed to tilt beneath my feet. The laughter and music that had felt festive moments before now pressed against my skull like static. I looked around at my friends—Naomi was mid-story, gesturing wildly with her drink, while others nodded and smiled. No one had noticed me yet. No one had seen the world collapse.

Four years. Four years of loving him, of making myself smaller, of telling myself that his distance meant depth, that his indifference was mystery. All of it—a game. A performance. A tool.

I set my untouched champagne on the ledge and walked toward the door, my vision blurring. The rain had started falling—a light patter that quickly turned heavy as I descended the stairs and pushed through the building's lobby onto the street. The downpour soaked through my dress instantly, but I barely felt it.

My hands shook as I fumbled with my car keys. The tears mixing with rain on my cheeks made it impossible to see clearly, but I got the door open and slid inside. The engine started with a rumble, and I pulled away from the curb without checking the mirrors.

I didn't know where I was going. I only knew I needed to move, to keep moving, before the weight of his words crushed me completely. The windshield wipers fought a losing battle against the intensifying storm. Seattle's lights smeared into watercolor streaks as I drove faster, my knuckles white against the steering wheel.

'You never really mattered.'

The words played on repeat in my mind, each iteration carving deeper. My chest constricted until breathing felt like swallowing glass. I pressed harder on the accelerator, needing the speed, needing the wind, needing *something* to match the storm inside me.

I didn't see the truck.

Only the headlights, sudden and blinding, filling my vision a heartbeat before impact. Metal crunched against metal. Glass shattered. My car spun, the world becoming a blur of