GAMMA ADONAI

BALQIS’S POV

“What are you doing?” Julius, my mate, snapped as I removed his dick from my mouth.

I couldn’t gulp. My saliva had turned thick and salty from the blow jobs I gave him for the past two hours, trying to please him. “S…Sorry. I was just tired,” I mumbled.

“You cut off my pleasure, is sorry gonna fix that?” He glared at me, obviously very furious.

I sighed with exhaustion. I had to persuade him now too. “Baby, I’ve been doing that for two hours now, and you came twice in my mouth so I…”

“I came twice in your mouth, and you’re tired already?” He sneered. “If I marry you, is this the attitude you’ll keep up?”

“Julius, I…”

“I don’t want to hear it!” He cut me off harshly and got off the bed hastily. “Thanks to you, I lost my appetite for sex!”

I also got out of bed, standing fully naked before him. “Julius, I don’t mean it that way. I’m not just used to anal and…”

He scoffed. “Not used to anal? Satisfying your man is so hard for you, right?”

I watched as he adjusted his hair before putting on his pants, even though his dick was still bulging out of them. Then he put on a shirt and prepared to leave.

I grabbed his hand, pulling him back, “Don’t be vexed, honey. Where are you going?”

“Don’t ask me!” He quipped back.

My chest tightened in panic. The first thing I feared was Julius’ anger. Once he got angry at me, he became unreachable, and I had to apologize in the end. “Don’t leave, please. I’ll do what….”

He turned around and interrupted, “Too bad, baby. I’m no longer interested,” then he snapped his hand from mine.

No! I can’t lose him like this. He’s my ray of sunshine and the reason I still hold on to my dilapidated life. He shut the door in my face just as I ran after him, and I fell back on my butt, still naked.

What do I do to satisfy this man whom I love so much? Being the illegitimate daughter born out of wedlock, I had led a bitter and sad life before meeting him.

No mother to have my back because she died of cancer, no father to pacify me, and my stepmother was too busy arranging her daughter’s marriage to the Alpha’s son to care about me.

Julius came into my life at the darkest point when everyone branded me a prostitute instead of the dancer that I was. The mate bond helped us, and he didn’t reject me, and because of him, the ugly names disappeared into thin air.

We connected well and easily. He took my virginity, and sex became a regular part of our lives, which I thought was normal until I discovered his insane craving for blow jobs and anal sex.

For days later, I didn’t hear anything from Julius. I called, searched, and even visited